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Since things were going pretty normal for my pregnancy I wasn't scheduled for an ultrasound for quite some time. We were too anxious to wait and see what we were having so we went to Fetal Fotos to find out. Just as I had predicted we were having a boy. We were so excited because now we could start buying items for the baby since we knew the gender.

Here came the fun part, how do we share the gender news with our parents? At this point we had ordered all of the nursery furniture. Josh had built it, but our parents had not seen it yet. So we called our parents to come on over to see the finished furniture (wink, wink). I had hung baby blue balloons with his ultrasound photo over the crib. Our parents and family walked into our nursery with a surprise. They were thrilled and yes there was lots of tears again.

Sharing the News

Having a baby in our family is a big deal. This was the first Grandbaby for both our mom's and first Great-Grandbaby on Josh's side of the family. We knew the excitement over this would be huge. After all they have only been asking and talking about it for years. We tried to think of a clever way to share the news without giving it away. In the past occasionally we invite our mom's over for evening coffee and just catch up. My mother in law would be leaving to Guatemala the following week, so we knew it wouldn't be too conspicuous if we did this. In addition we ordered a fruit tart from our favorite bakery Groumandies for evening desert, but we had them add We're Expecting February 2015.

There we all were gathered over coffee talking like we normally do and we took out the fruit tart. My brother noticed it first and his jaw dropped. He told my mom who was busy talking, "Mom! Look at the fruit tart!" She looked and let out of the biggest gasp I've ever heard come from her. She burst into tears and so did my mother in law. The cry fest and hugs began. I never thought I could give news that would make others so happy. Funny how baby news has a way of doing that.

We're Expeting!

We couldn't be more thrilled, we finally have a baby on the way. There are so many mixed emotions when you find out that you are pregnant; shock, happiness, joy, excitement, contentment. But then the true reality set in for me. In the back of my mind my biggest worry I always had, dealing with Epilepsy and pregnancy.

We always knew that when the day came that there would be a lot of concern because of the medication I take to control the seizures. Going completely off of them was not an option. Years before we were married Josh and I made the decision to try having kids anyway and trusting our worry's in God's hands. We knew that we would love this baby no matter what. We had one another to lean on and get through whatever challenges we faced ahead. After all, isn't that what marriage is all about?

We took all of the appropriate steps years prior to trying to ensure that we would have a healthy baby. Funny how we thought it would happen fast like it did for so many others, but it didn't. You would think that it would not matter much, but the pressure from everyone was often times overwhelming. I don't know if it's the living in Utah thing or coming from a Hispanic family that made it worse. Up until now all I wanted to do was avoid the word "baby" simply because I thought it wouldn't happen for us, and how do you explain that? Every time that someone would ask the dreaded question "when will you guys have kids?" the best thing I could do was put a smile on my face and make up whatever excuse I had even though sometimes deep down I wanted to cry. Not because of their constant questions, but because I felt like a failure. We were patient, we waited and waited. Now that day is finally here. We are expecting! This time I have tears of joy for a change.